(2) The dark side of Wisdom

The original title of this blog was “Wisdom as a bitch”.  For those who have just dropped in, my premise is to examine Wisdom in Proverbs as female, wise and loving in the way that Jesus described his ‘Father’, not Joseph but God.  The chapters I am use specifically define wisdom as female.  Proverbs 1:20-33, 8:1-36 and 9:1-18.

Sticking with the theme from ‘Folly to be Wise’ .. our first example of folly is in deciding that this is an appropriate example of the behaviour of a loving God, or even a creation of God (discussed more in the next article “The nature of Wisdom”); the God who Jesus tried so hard to convince us was watching over us and loving us unconditionally (1 Corinthians 1:1-13).  Paraphrasing … ‘Love one another as I have loved you’ (John 13:34, 15:12).  If Wisdom is the example, it is no wonder living people do not get along with each other.

Wisdom as a female prophet

In Proverbs 1:20-23 Wisdom, as a woman, was outside yelling in the streets, demanding attention.  She called everyone ‘simple ones’.
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I shall extend this a little and suggest she meant ‘simple-minded’ in our language, given that she later refers to fools or foolish people.  The dictionary meaning of simple-minded is:  “not very intelligent, or having or showing a lack of good sense or judgement” (1).  Is she calling to fools in hope they will listen to her, or the innocent who will not look past the covering of sweet words and promises?
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Proverbs 1:24-33
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24 Because I have called and you refused;  have stretched out my hand and no one heeded, 
25 And because you have ignored all my counsel and would have none of my reproof,
26 I also will laugh at your calamity; I will mock when panic strikes you,
27 when panic strikes you like a storm, and your calamity comes like a whirlwind, when distress and anguish come upon you.
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Is this Wisdom, wise and kind?  She turns her back on those who do not listen to her.  She laughs and mocks.  Is that what a loving creation of God would do?  Is this what God does to those who believe in him?  And even to those who don’t?  If God loves all of his creations unconditionally, then those who do not believe are loved as much as those who do.  They are all given the opportunity to choose another path – the one that leads back to him.  Whether God loves unconditionally or not is not a discussion for today, but it will become another blog in the future.
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28 Then they will call upon me, but I will not answer; they will seek me diligently, but will not find me.
29 Because they hated knowledge and did not choose the fear of the Lord,
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Humanity chooses not the fear the Lord, but Wisdom is not ‘The Lord’ so her anger at them is on God’s behalf, or is it?  Given that we are supposed to pay attention to ‘her’ (Proverbs 22:17-18, 5:1-6) and give her the same respect as God, where does she place herself in the hierarchy?
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Her behaviour is not God’s behaviour – “Ask, and it will be given you; search, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened for you.  For everyone who asks receives, and everyone who searches finds, and for everyone who knocks, the door will be opened”. (Matthew 7:7-8 & Luke 11:9-10)
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30 would have none of my counsel, and despised all my reproof,
31 therefore they shall eat the fruit of their way and be sated with their own devices.
A reference to Genesis 3:6 when Eve and then Adam ate the fruit and they were both expelled from the “Garden”.  Humanity was foolish then, and if they do not listen to ‘her’ they will remain that way.
32 For waywardness kills the simple, and the complacency of fools destroys them;
33 but those who listen to me will be secure and will live at ease, without dread of disaster.
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Having done many years research into the concept of fallen angels, I can perfectly see here the storms and rages of an invisible being acting in the mirror image of her* true nature as Wisdom.

  • Please note that when I say ‘her’ I am doing two things, following the theme of wisdom as a female (all emotion) and also that fallen angels (demons) are also driven by emotion (ego).  I am not classifying the female human race as either all emotion or demons.

The nature of Wisdom is to learn and teach.  This being called ‘Wisdom’ offers so much with one hand, and takes it back with the other.  She is, if you like, in two minds.  The angel of Illumination (2) would swap from teaching Love and Wisdom to teaching Hatred and Confusion.  She would act out her dissatisfaction with those who refuse to follow her – in a way that is exactly opposite a loving God, but more like the behaviour of Jehovah, who is not to be trusted.

The Blessings of Wisdom

Proverbs 8:1-36

13 The fear of the Lord is hatred of evil …
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I could write a whole page on this very short sentence.  To me it has one meaning.  Every commentary I have checked either ignores it, or tries to rewrite it, sometimes in great depth, or explain that it means something it doesn’t say.  They refer to Proverbs 1:7 “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, fools despise wisdom and instruction”; and 9:10 “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is insight”.  But it does not say either of those things.  It says ‘The fear of the Lord .. is hatred of evil’ .. as if this Lord fears that people will “hate evil”?  Who is this Lord?  9:10 makes perfect sense if it is an entity that should be avoided, such as Wisdom and ‘him’self.  (Lord being a male title). The rest of 13 is …  pride and arrogance and the way of evil and perverted speech I hate.
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14 I have good advice and sound wisdom; I have insight; I have strength.
15 By me kings reign, and rulers decree what is just;
16 by me rulers rule, and nobles, all who govern rightly.
17 I love those who love me, and those who seek me diligently find me.
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14 – 17 are all “I am” statements, demonstrating her power.  Like God in Job 38, 39 & 41, some of which appears to be incoherent rantings.  For example, 41:1 “Can you draw out Leviathan with a fishhook …?” when Job calls God to account for his suffering.
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And then there are these:
Wisdom offers …
18 Riches and honour are with me, enduring wealth and prosperity.
19 My fruit is better than gold, even fine gold, and my yield than choice silver.
20 I walk in the way of righteousness, in the paths of justice,
21 endowing with wealth those who love me, and filling their treasuries.
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Matthew 6:19-21
Jesus offers …
19 Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth; where moth and rust consume and where thieves break in and steal;
20 but store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust consumes and where thieves do not break in and steal.
21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
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Who is this being called Wisdom?   There is more to follow ….
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Turning a new leaf – the Self through Wisdom Literature

In investigating the Self (myself) through Wisdom Literature, my first question has to be – ‘am I any the wiser for this long journey?’  And who measures that wisdom, if not myself?  Am I kinder, more worthy of love, a speaker of peace, less likely to judge, than when I was the child .. right now I would have to say no – for I am still the ashes of the phoenix and have not risen yet to be reborn.  So let me use the Wisdom of others to look upon this Self and see where we are now in the Journey of Life, from birth to rebirth, beginning at the ending … where ignorance is no longer bliss.

Condemned alike to groan;
The tender for another’s pain,
The unfeeling for his own.
Yet ah! why should they know their fate?
Since sorrow never comes too late,
And happiness too swiftly flies.
Thought would destroy their paradise.
No more; where ignorance is bliss,
‘Tis folly to be wise.”
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As many people choose to do with the Bible, I quote only a small part at the end of a long poem by Thomas Gray, who speaks of life at Eton College, but could also be speaking about life in general, the highs and lows .. and asks that final question “Yet ah! why should they know their fate?” Which really leads on to the events in Revelation, but also leads back to the getting of Wisdom through the Bible and Apocrypha – Proverbs, Psalms, Ecclesiastes, Job, Wisdom of Solomon, Tobit, Judith, and many more.  Some deny the right or importance of the Apocrypha as a reference to our Spiritual past, but to me they show a broader field of understanding of the people who wrote the words we believe are important in understanding not just God and Jesus, but also the mindset and beliefs of the societies from which they came.
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The getting of wisdom can be a very painful process.  Lessons and learning drop into our laps, from multitudes of sources, but they do not become Wisdom until we learn to turn them inwards and apply them to ourselves.  We do not learn compassion from showing compassion, but only from suffering pain and loss of our own, so that we can step into the shoes of the ‘other’ and share, in some small way, the emotions that are driving their life journey.  We can then ’empathise’ rather than just ‘sympathising’.  Then we can ‘be’ Love (1 Cor 13), rather than just an observer, the clanging cymbal.
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“Christ with me, Christ before me,
Christ behind me, Christ in me,
Christ beneath me, Christ above me,
Christ on my right, Christ on my left,
Christ when I lie down, Christ when I sit down,
Christ when I arise,
Christ in the heart of every man who thinks of me,
Christ in the mouth of everyone who speaks of me,
Christ in every eye that sees me,
Christ in every ear that hears me.”

― St. Patrick

The password to my mind

Every so often I forget the password to one of the many sites I write on on the internet, and no matter how I search my password book, I cannot find it – and so I am forced to examine myself to create a new password, a new key to the inner voice of Me that is expressed in the various pages of my blogs.

Since I ceased to write on this site more than a year ago the inner me has been tested by fire, and while its still feeling a little singed at the edges, I don’t think I .. or perhaps I did, to some degree .. have the whole phoenix experience, to emerge remade, or was it simply remodeled.

I drift.  I wish I could say it was in a sea of calm, but mostly it is in a sea of confusion, of tested compassion and patience, of wishing and wishful thinking, and wondering where God is in all these adventures.  I drift, as though in a row boat with no oars, sail or rudder, gently, quietly, after all of the rapids .. Do I need a holiday, or is that nearly over?  Is the slowly rising head of boredom a spur to send me down old paths when I thought I was guided to new?  When will the drifting cease, and the fountain of words return, that tell stories and shares thoughts without the struggle of ‘what to say’?  A blank page feels like a closed door right now.

Many years ago I met a nun who’s every greeting began with ‘and where is God in your life today’ .. I am sorry I lost track of her, she moved to Canada (from Australia) to study the ‘Spirituality of St Ignatius’, and left me rather floundering with my own. In the many years since that event, I’ve gone through angry and out the other side.  I’ve gone through broken and been the re-maker.  I’ve gone through a strong desire to change completely, and tried other paths, just to find myself come full-circle, back to where my heart truly is, at the feet of God, wondering ‘what next’ in this crazy adventure I have made of my life.  I … have … made … not God, because, while God is the core of my being, it (or he) is not the chooser of my path.

People say that God has a plan for every person, then stand bewildered when the plan includes them dying young, or in some horrible way, or withering into nothingness bound down by pain and sorrow, and those who are left behind stare at the place God was supposed to be and find it empty, and themselves empty, because God did not keep the promises we think it (he) made .. or worse, we are told that God made the promises, just before we (they) destroy ourselves, because the path has been too hard, or was it that we thought we were simply not good enough?

No, I am not suffering from depression.  Where is the bit I just wrote about being bored?  Boredom and I are not good companions.  I have no patience with bulldust, most particularly my own.  🙂

When I decided to reanimate this blog I took my favourite bible (I have 13 versions of the Christian bible, all different, or is it 14 now) and opened it up to find a password, and then when I didn’t like what I read, I went to one of my favourite passages .. and because I think I have been boring enough, let me copy it here.  You’ll recognise it –

  1. If I speak in the tongues of mortals or of angels, but do not have love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.
  2. If I have the prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing.
  3. If I give away all my possessions, and if I hand over my body so that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.
  4. Love is patient, love is kind; love is not envious, or boastful, or arrogant
  5. or rude.  It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;
  6. it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth.
  7. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
  8. Love never ends. But as for prophecies, they will come to the end; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will come to an end.
  9. For we know only in part and we prophesy only in part,
  10. but when the complete comes, the partial will come to an end.
  11. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became an adult, I put an end to childish ways.
  12. For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then we shall see face to face. Now I know only in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
  13. And now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; and the greatest of these is love.

I have looked into the glass darkly and only seen myself.  I have touched the darkness with both hands and found only God.  I have been a Spiritual Warrior who desperately wanted to put down her sword .. but no, it is still in my hand.  The Sword and the Words are the same being, according to Revelation.  Are we at the time when we will reveal ourselves truly, or should we just lay down our hearts and say “Dear God help us.  We are lost again”.

The Christians speak of the second coming as an age of miracles when we will be rescued from our own folly.  But why should God rescue us again, when we have ignored, denied, denigrated, destroyed and worse, and been hypocrites in ‘his’ name?  And continue these behaviors without regard for others.  We try to externalize the anti-Christ, when perhaps, we should look within ourselves?  The real mystery is why God continues to love all its (his) creations, and I do mean all of them, even after a millennia of bad behaviour.

So I shall lay down my sword and pick up a pen, or at least type on my keyboard, since my writing is pretty awful most of the time.  You’ll be seeing me.

Love & Peace

More babble about Babel

Ok, so I am playing with words .. but here’s a thought … who is ‘us’?

In my translation of the Bible (New Oxford Annotated Bible Fourth Edition) the ‘Lord’ said, “Come, let US go down and confusion their language, so that they will not understand one another’s speech”.  This throws me back to the conversation at the creation of humanity ‘Let US make humankind in OUR image, according to OUR likeness..’.  Now I know humanity uses the ‘royal plural’ in speech these days, and it has to come from somewhere, but if God made humanity in its image, then God is both male and female, or a hermaphrodite, being a little of each.  That would explain one form of the ‘us’.  

Which raises the thought that if humanity was speaking with one language, easily understanding each other, joyfully worshipping God, why would Jehovah want to disrupt this perfection .. or weren’t humanity supposed to achieve this before Jesus came, to show God in all its glory?  And which God are we talking about anyway, since there is no Love and good in all that confusion .. or is there?

Humankind learns best through trial and error.  Given a perfect circumstances we are quite determined to find something wrong with it, throw in our own thoughts and opinions, and build a tower that leans like Pisa .. we don’t need any help from God to screw up, we have it down to an art form.  By Jehovah and friends stepping in and confusing the language, they would first have caused arguments, perhaps even wars, but after a time some people would have tried to learn each other’s languages, just as we do today.  Even sign language, or hand gestures can almost create a conversation, with some work.  Was that the plan?  To try and make humanity less perfect .. after all everyone was descended from Noah and his wife and daughter’s-in-law .. I wonder how those three felt after losing their parents in the flood, but that’s a side thought .. was Noah perfect, or just good at boat building?  

Reading on .. No, he definitely wasn’t perfect, he cursed his grandson Canaan for the boy’s father (Ham) seeing him naked.  My notes talk about incestuous behaviours, but to be ‘naked’ has another meaning.  It means to be truly visible in all your imperfections, to have nothing hidden .. so if Noah was not a good man, Ham saw this and ‘knew’ Noah differently from his brothers.  Can we compare this with being supposed not to look into the face of God, because we will die .. but why should we, if God is only about Love, then why would God’s ‘nakedness’ destroy us?  Why are we not allowed to be curious about God?  There was no written language at that time, only the stories passed from teacher to pupil, and parents to children, and those stories talked of the history, the mystery and the facts about God .. but not just the God of the Israelites, because that was before their time also, but Gods from other communities around them .. and yet, all those other communities came from the same source, so where did the different ‘gods’ come from, if not from human imagination?  I would think that the real God would truly want humanity to find It again among the muddle .. so confusing the language, to me, seems purposefully destructive.  Why did humanity need to be so severely punished in a time when they were scattering across the world anyway .. or was it because they were ‘not’ scattering?  No, that’s not true either, if you read your bible .. confusion on confusion .. and this book is translated direct from the ancient languages.

Gotta love it ..

Bless you all.

Observing Genesis: The Tower of Babel and Faith

Who is God?

.. or even ‘what is God’?

I remember a discussion, well, almost a discussion, with an interesting young male Christian who, when asked not to use the Bible as a source of reference for ‘who is God’ gave up the argument straight away, because the Bible is the only source, or ‘Word’, we have of who or what God is – and the views are conflicting.

And then there is Faith. One daily religious message I get describes faith as a ‘gift from God’. It goes on to say that ‘Faith allows us to perceive the truth’, but I have to question quite a bit of this statement given that other religious people have ‘faith’ in their God, so is their truth different to mine, if I choose to believe in Jesus’ God rather than Job’s, or theirs?

That’s one of the conflicts. Jesus’ God taught ‘love one another’, Job’s taught ‘fear me or I will punish the most innocent among you’. Which would you prefer to follow, given a choice? Allah preaches peace, but some of ‘his’ followers preach Jihad? Whose truth is that?

The daily religious ‘thought’ then says faith ‘persuades our emotions to embrace the truth and then moves our will to act upon it’. Persuades .. does faith nag? Persuasion can be a very quiet and gentle voice, or it can be a nagging irritation .. think of a tired two year old who demands something she or he wants, regardless of what the parent wants. In the end we give in, because there is no other way to stop the noise. Which raises the question ‘does God nag’? And since our emotions are connected to our ego (the inner child who often lives in fear), which demands immediate obedience, particularly when we are unhappy, how does it help us in the search for truth? Do we search only through desperation, or, as sometimes happens .. revelation? Is that why ‘born again Christians’ (and Muslims .. I’ve been nagged by them too ‘the one true religion’) have so much zeal that they sometimes forget good manners and start nagging me to ‘convert’ .. only I don’t have to, I’m already Christian. Why do I have to be ‘born again’, or even baptised again? And which ‘faith’ do I choose .. there are so many that call themselves Christian these days.

In the beginning there was one language in the world, and that one language inspired humanity to reach towards God, or did it? Perhaps it inspired only arrogance? The people even built a tower to try and reach God’s resting place (Genesis 11:1-9) – though I don’t see how that works, given that God is a spiritual being, and heaven is not in the sky around the planet. Down came ‘the Lord’, saw they were gathered as one people (the way he created them to be, given that God created all things) and then decided to punish them for their aspirations by taking away the common language and scattering humanity across the earth. They stopped building the tower for a while.

I’m confused. Why did God decide to do this? The passage says that the Lord then stated “… and this is only the beginning of what they will do; nothing that they propose to do will now be impossible for them”. Since humanity was created to create, what is the issue here?

And so I slip down into the notes and find: ‘this theme revisits the “preservation of the divine-human boundary”. God did not want us to live forever (Genesis 3:22-24), nor to bear half-divine children (6:1-4). Not sure what that has to do with stopping people building towers, but perhaps Jehovah didn’t want humanity to gain knowledge that would show its true nature, given its pleasure in disrupting our lives? And was the tower literal, or figurative .. the search for the knowledge of what God actually is, or who it is .. confusing conversations, comparisons, and creativity would definitely stop people finding out who God really is. Such a pity at a time when we truly need it most.

The tower of Babel, or the outcome of its building, still affects the world today. When will we once again find a common language, one based on Love not hatred, one based on Faith and not fear, one based on one Truth .. not my truth, or your truth, but OUR truth. Until that time we are still roaming the world, lost, alone and frightened .. and yet the voice of God is now within us .. so who created the boundary .. who scattered the people? Who is the Lord Jehovah, if God teaches Love? And who took the barrier away .. I think the Christians know the answer to that particular question, or think they do.

God bless you.